Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

Sam breathes like it takes effort, and then he says, "Wanting you was the very first thing I realized was wrong with me. It was how I knew there was something sick inside."

(One of them had to fall first. A story about devotion.)

Bookmarker's Notes:

Apparently I started this in January and finished it in May. Despite what the time it took me to complete this fic may lead you to think, I'm unquestionably fond of it. Gorgeous prose, stellar pacing, rich, complicated explorations of their relationship, and a nice polish of incest kink to finish it off with. Hathfrozen is incapable of disappointing.

Words: 64,098   Bookmarked Date: 5/14/24

Pairings: Kageyama Ritsu/Kageyama "Mob" Shigeo
Fandom: Mob Psycho 100 open_in_new

Summary:

Accidents happen. They were only playing. Sometimes kids get carried away, especially kids like Shigeo.

Bookmarker's Notes:

Legitimately beautiful. Shows all and tells very little, leaving much up to the imagination. I don't usually enjoy Mob initiating where these two are concerned, but this worked beautifully.

Words: 1,387   Bookmarked Date: 5/11/24

Pairings: Luo Binghe/Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu
Fandom: The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System open_in_new

Summary:

The System gives Shen Qingqiu the ability to exchange B-Points for items, and what better way to earn points than by raising the satisfaction level of Zhongdian's favourite protagonist?

OR: The one where Shen Qingqiu starts seducing the fuck out of Binghe in order to enable his caffeine addiction.

Bookmarker's Notes:

Bookmarked for Shen Yuan's inability to hurt his Binghe!

Words: 18,992   Bookmarked Date: 5/7/24

Pairings: Luo Binghe/Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu
Fandom: The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System open_in_new

Summary:

Shen Qingqiu falls with Luo Binghe into the Abyss in hopes that with this action, perhaps he can repay his betrayal to the blackened protagonist. Things don't get better.

Bookmarker's Notes:

This is one of those fics best left to stew in your brain for a few weeks. It absolutely gutted me to see tenderness in such a brutal environment. This fic was extremely, frighteningly in character, and a somber portrayal of the cycles of mistrust, abuse, and codependency at the crossroads of dissolution of self and surrendering to someone else's complete control. The love that tied it all together was the best and worst part. Deeply and delightfully nauseating read.

Words: 47,414   Bookmarked Date: 4/20/24

Pairings: Luo Binghe/Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu, Original Luo Binghe/Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu
Fandom: The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System open_in_new

Summary:

Shen Yuan has been engaged to Emperor Luo Binghe from almost the hour of his birth. He grows up knowing his place in the world exactly; he is far less certain of his place in his betrothed's guarded affections.

Bookmarker's Notes:

I'm so obsessed with canon!Shen Yuan visiting Bingge to make sure he's being good. I love the research x_los put into this fic and the premise. I'm pretty sure this was my first x_los fic. Everyone has to start somewhere, right?

Words: 17,861   Bookmarked Date: 4/18/24

Pairings: Regulus Black/Sirius Black
Fandom: Harry Potter open_in_new

Summary:

The street which your flat's on has only four streetlamps...The world has an edge of unreality, surreality: you feel like there ought to be a saxophone playing. You think you're a bit tipsy.

Bookmarker's Notes:

The imagery in this one was incredible. Finishing this fic made me feel delightfully hollow and lonely.The sheer amount of characterization conveyed in >2000 words with no dialogue. The beautifully elaborate sentences reeking of paradoxical ennui and desperation that go nowhere at all in the end. A keeper for making a rainy day rainier.

Words: 1,982   Bookmarked Date: 4/16/24

Pairings: Meng Yao | Jin Guangyao/Mo Xuanyu
Fandom: Modao Zushi | Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation open_in_new, The Untamed open_in_new

Summary:

The first thing Mo Xuanyu does is gasp. He coughs hard and then rubs his wrists over his eyes to clear the tears that had gathered there.

"Very good," Jin Guangyao says, once again brushing his hair into place. "I think you should take a break. You've been working quite diligently, a-Yu, and I appreciate your work."

Mo Xuanyu stares at him, mouth agape again, but this time with the natural contours of shock. Tears cling to his eyelashes. "I…" he says, and then closes his mouth to swallow. Pain flickers across his expression as he does.

"In fact, I think we've both done enough work for the night," Jin Guangyao says. He has the two needles tucked into the fitted cuff of his sleeve. "Go on back to the disciple quarters. A-Su will be wondering where I am if I don't join her in the garden soon."

--

Jin Guangyao and Mo Xuanyu alone together behind the great bronze mirror.

Bookmarker's Notes:

Agony.

Words: 3,995   Bookmarked Date: 4/14/24

Pairings: Original Luo Binghe/Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu
Fandom: The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System open_in_new

Summary:

Luo Binghe's destabilized more mid-level demonic regimes than he can count on one hand; setting up one untenured scum teacher for scandal and disrepute will be like snapping his fingers.

Luo Binghe mistakes Shen Yuan for his shitty brother and gets his ass domesticated. This will prove to be a mixed blessing.

Bookmarker's Notes:

Unforgettable. I loved the relationship progression in this one, and the relationship between the Shen brothers. Very fleshed-out, right down to the most microscopic worldbuilding details that make this universe feel lush and well thought-out. The beautiful art is a fantastic bonus.

Words: 108,096   Bookmarked Date: 4/14/24

Pairings: Hua Cheng/Xie Lian
Fandom: Tian Guan Ci Fu | Heaven Official's Blessing open_in_new

Summary:

Immediately after his return, Hua Cheng realizes that he can feel whenever Xie Lian touches his ring. It doesn't bother him. In fact, he finds it endearing.

But he ignores it, because something else is worrying him: why is Xie Lian acting so guilty?

Bookmarker's Notes:

Love Xie Lian calling the shots. Quality.

Words: 9,885   Bookmarked Date: 11 Apr 2024

Pairings: Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji/Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian
Fandom: The Untamed open_in_new, Modao Zushi | Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation open_in_new

Summary:

The next time he reaches for his clothes, Lan Wangji slaps his hands out of the way. Wei Ying's eyes go momentarily wide, then narrow in fiendish pleasure. "Yes," he hisses. "There you are." He tosses his head, hair coming apart in pieces over his face, obscuring his beautiful mouth and shining eyes. "There you are, Lan Zhan. Fuck me. Fuck me, I don't want to–make me listen to you, make me better. Make me better. You could have, you could have–."

(It's one of Wei Wuxian's bad days)

Bookmarker's Notes:

Haunting character study. They're such a beautiful mess of broken glass that fits together just right. I'm haunted.

Words: 1,685   Bookmarked Date: 4/9/24

Pairings: Asagiri Minori & Mogami Keiji
Fandom: Mob Psycho 100 open_in_new

Summary:

Mogami's palm lands solid against the door beside her head, and she barely stifles a whimper as he leans over her. "I expect you know all about that, Asagiri Minori. Tell me–have you always known that's why you choose to torment others? Or was it just for fun?"

"Please," she stammers.

"Please," he echoes. "You haven't even asked me for anything."

Bookmarker's Notes:

This fic – specifically the final scene – made me cry. Visceral, cathartic fic.

Minori has always been one of my favorite MP100 characters, though the horror of her story remains largely unexplored in canon, which works amazingly in a canon focused on Mob, but I still love her and appreciate getting more pieces of the puzzle that is Asagiri Minori. This fic did her justice in a way I can't fully articulate. Most of the fandom seems to fall into the trap of wanting to choose between letting her be a bully and a sad, manipulated girl, but this fic balanced those parts of her brilliantly and with a great deal of respect. Minori wasn't entirely helpless in this fic, but she's also not in control, and she doesn't know how to come to terms with it. A flawless read that will have a place in my heart forever.

Words: 10,961   Bookmarked Date: 4/8/24

Pairings: Luo Binghe/Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu
Fandom: The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System open_in_new

Summary:

At a crucial moment in Proud Immortal Demon Way, Luo Binghe loses faith in his shizun. Shen Yuan, a brand-new reader of a novel still in the backstory chapters, feels so bad for him that it rips a hole in space-time. Now he's tasked with fixing the baby protagonist's broken heart, so Luo Binghe is ready to become the stallion he's destined to be!

Your classic reverse transmigration premise, but Binghe is fifteen.

Bookmarker's Notes:

I read this in one sitting and it changed my life forever. Reverse transmigration is one of my most beloved tropes for these two. Is this the perfect fic? Very likely.

Words: 54,248   Bookmarked Date: 4/7/24

Pairings: Xiao | Alatus/Zhongli
Fandom: Genshin Impact open_in_new

Summary:

"So?" Zhongli asks. In his visible excitement, he gets up and leans over Xiao's arm to peer at the page too. "Can you see anything of interest?"

'Yes', Xiao wants to say, 'I see the most gorgeous hair I've ever seen. I see a sliver of a smile as cold and as warm as moonlight. I see the hint of a cheek I want to kiss and the line of an arm I want to feel wrapped around my neck.'

-
Based on an amazing thread by Marin.

Bookmarker's Notes:

I've never played Genshin. This was recommended to me by the same friend who put me through the pain of Pig's Blood, and it did not disappoint. Incomparably painful fic. My heart has been shattered into a million pieces and I am going to cry. Thanks for the rec, darling.

Words: 14,048   Bookmarked Date: 4/5/24

Pairings: Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji/Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian
Fandom: Modao Zushi | Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation open_in_new, The Untamed open_in_new

Summary:

"Move again," Lan Zhan says, her voice too low and too dangerous in her throat, "and I'll cut you."

Wei Ying's dark eyes go wide. "Like. On purpose?"

(or, Wei Ying gets a haircut every time she dumps a boy.)

Bookmarker's Notes:

So maybe this was my fem!WangXian awakening? I'm so glad this fandom has such a thriving community of femslash writers. I adore "straight girl" Wei Ying.

Words: 3,822   Bookmarked Date: 4/3/24

Pairings: Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji/Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian, Nie Huaisang & Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian
Fandom: The Untamed open_in_new

Summary:

Wei Wuxian and Nie Huaisang keep up a lively correspondence after their time at Cloud Recesses. It gets even livelier when, due to Nie Huaisang's limited allowance, they have to start writing their own porn to discuss. It's really not Nie Huaisang's fault that his brother thought the letters marked "Lan Wangji" were FOR Lan Wangji!

Bookmarker's Notes:

I think about this fic constantly. Came for the WangXian, stayed for the Wei Ying & Nie Huaisang friendship. Absolutely delightful fic.

Words: 30,989   Bookmarked Date: 4/3/24