QNNNA's Den of Depravity | Recs > Supernatural

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

"'Sacrificial'? What are you sacrificing?"

Dean's black eyes glittered in the fluorescent lights. Sam's head was pounding from blood loss, his wrist ached where the knife went in and and he was freezing, wearing just his robe in the dungeon. He sighed.

"A quart of blood and most of my dignity."

Words: 8,425   Bookmarked Date: 20 Aug 2024

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

Dean was getting hard, watching Sam. The worst part was that he was surprised by it: he lied to himself, so perfectly and for so long, that he actually managed to feel scandalized, as if it were news to him. Me? Hard for my brother? Since when?

But it wasn’t news. It wasn’t the first time. It wasn’t the fifth time. Sparring last night. Watching him sleep last week. At a motel pool in Arizona last year. Dean had been sick for so long.

Bookmarker's Notes:

I could write an essay about Goshen's specific brand of wincest. I'm absolutely head-over-heels for this claustrophobic, angry, boundary-pushing awkward masichismo that's especially present in their unpolished years. It's just something about how far it goes and how far Sam is able to push within his self-imposed deadline. As for Dean, I'm obsessed with watching these rules he's carefully crafted for himself all they fall apart as he spirals forwards towards inevitability. That last line is just the cherry on top, what a gorgeous fic.

Words: 25,194   Bookmarked Date: 31 Jul 2024

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

In 1988, three witches in Montana are growing a monster in their garden, and Sam is holiday snack. When Dean and John show up to get him, one witch is killed, and Dean gets a love curse that he keeps secret. As teenagers, Sam and Dean are living in a dying industrial town in Pennsylvania, where they come across a crooked old creature that takes an unusual interest in Dean. As adults, Sam and Dean return to Montana for a hunt and run into the two surviving witches who have been unsuccessfully trying to grow their monster. Dean, still carrying the love spell from the dead witch, is looking like perfect plant feed.

Bookmarker's Notes:

This author sold their soul to the devil for pretty prose. I have no explanation for the genuis and artistry present in every turn of phrase. The witches fit so seamlessly into this world, to the point that I was actually more invested in them than I was in Sam and Dean (sorry, boys). So creative and inspired, fitting almost entirely outside of the binary boundaries of trope categories. I feel so lucky to have read this.

Words: 30,348   Bookmarked Date: 12 Jul 2024

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

Everything Dean is, even all these years later, is still for Sam, only ever Sam, it beats through his blood more real to him than his own heartbeat, Sam, Sam, Sam. The common fucking denominator of Dean's entire life.

or

Four years later, Dean has Sam back. Some things have changed. The main thing hasn't.

Bookmarker's Notes:

Sequel to the next fic down. This was an arrow to the heart, so intense and smothering that it made me nauseous at times.

Words: 35,769   Bookmarked Date: 10 Jul 2024

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

dean makes sloppy joes for dinner the night before sam leaves for stanford.

Bookmarker's Notes:

Bare prose rife with pain. Feels like a bruise you can't stop poking at.

Words: 1,067   Bookmarked Date: 07 Jul 2024

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

Sam watched Dean hack up firewood with his hatchet. The magically-induced heat wave had his shirt soaked with sweat.

“Did you ever have a, uh… experimental phase?” Sam smacked his lips, trying to think of a diplomatic way to phrase it. “That kid–by which I mean you–has been staring. At me. Kind of a lot.”

(Sam and Dean get sent back to 1996 and go on a hunt with their teenaged selves. The kids don't know who they are.)

Bookmarker's Notes:

As much as I love the "It's the natural next step" Wincest, there will always be a special fondness in me for disgusting-messy Wincest and the unfiltered horror of familial codependency. This fic is that to a T. They're ugly and horrible and a fucking trainwreck and this fic really, really sells all of that. Something about the brutal inevitability of it all is just staggering – every stray scrap of symbolism contributes to this suffocating, inescapable atmosphere. The fever pitch is in the separation of seasons and thirteen years. The paranoid anxiety of it all is practically psychedelic.

This was such a unique premise and a faithful presentation of these characters in all the ways that are good, bad, and ugly.

Words: 105,324   Bookmarked Date: 28 Jun 2024

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

"The werewolf." Sam says, quick. Hushed. Scared. "I don't know how. I was…"He was standing above you and then he wasn't. And I think I did that."

Dean keeps whispering stuff to Sam, banal reassurances that Sam soaks up like a sponge, but he feels sick. Sammy did something impossible. Sammy's been doing impossible things.

For years.

Or: Pre-Canon/Teen!chesters AU in which Sam develops powers at age eleven, Dean will do anything to protect him, and they have to live with the consequences

Bookmarker's Notes:

This is one of the most beautiful fics I've ever read. Atmospheric and lovely, aching with possession and codependency, simple and gripping. They're only each other's . . .

Words: 55,501   Bookmarked Date: 6/18/24

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

Sam breathes like it takes effort, and then he says, "Wanting you was the very first thing I realized was wrong with me. It was how I knew there was something sick inside."

(One of them had to fall first. A story about devotion.)

Bookmarker's Notes:

Apparently I started this in January and finished it in May. Despite what the time it took me to complete this fic may lead you to think, I'm unquestionably fond of it. Gorgeous prose, stellar pacing, rich, complicated explorations of their relationship, and a nice polish of incest kink to finish it off with. Hathfrozen is incapable of disappointing.

Words: 64,098   Bookmarked Date: 5/14/24

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

An account of the times Sam jizzed himself while Dean pinned his hands down, starting with a game of cowboys and indians.

Bookmarker's Notes:

Great scenarios.

Words: 2,674   Bookmarked Date: 1/29/24

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

Sam grew into wanting Dean the same way he grew into his bones. It isn’t something they can will or trick or ignore away. It isn’t something that can be undone.

Bookmarker's Notes:

This one left me at a loss for words. The smut and tension were next level, the prose was phenomenal.

Words: 31,576   Bookmarked Date: 26 Oct 2023

Pairings: Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

“So this morning,” Dean ventures as they blast down the highway in pitch black night toward a probable werewolf case.

Sam looks over at him, thin eyebrows raised, eyes clear and calm. He’s not even difficult about it, doesn’t ask what Dean is after, doesn’t deny what had happened. Instead he says, very simply, “I just figure, why lie?”

Alright then.

Bookmarker's Notes:

The CODEPENDENCY. Weirdcest at its finest. Please give this a read if you love blurring of boundaries in any context.

Words: 5,994   Bookmarked Date: 23 Oct 2023

Pairings: Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

How do you escape the person who's supposed to be keeping you safe?

 

You wear anxiety like an old hat. But this is a home, not a graveyard. This is a friend. (This is a friend.)

Bookmarker's Notes:

The Munchausen's Syndrome by Proxy of my dreams. I treasure my beloved whump fix. I've reread this fic dozens of times, it's so cozy and horrible and wonderful. It's insanely well written and it helps that it triggers my specific synapses. A must-read, give this fic some love.

Words: 4,058   Bookmarked Date: 05 Oct 2023