QNNNA's Den of Depravity

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

Dean was getting hard, watching Sam. The worst part was that he was surprised by it: he lied to himself, so perfectly and for so long, that he actually managed to feel scandalized, as if it were news to him. Me? Hard for my brother? Since when?

But it wasn’t news. It wasn’t the first time. It wasn’t the fifth time. Sparring last night. Watching him sleep last week. At a motel pool in Arizona last year. Dean had been sick for so long.

Bookmarker's Notes:

I could write an essay about Goshen's specific brand of wincest. I'm absolutely head-over-heels for this claustrophobic, angry, boundary-pushing awkward masichismo that's especially present in their unpolished years. It's just something about how far it goes and how far Sam is able to push within his self-imposed deadline. As for Dean, I'm obsessed with watching these rules he's carefully crafted for himself all they fall apart as he spirals forwards towards inevitability. That last line is just the cherry on top, what a gorgeous fic.

Words: 25,194   Bookmarked Date: 31 Jul 2024

Pairings: Uchiha Itachi/Uchiha Sasuke, Uchiha Itachi & Uchiha Sasuke, Uchiha Fugaku & Uchiha Itachi, Uchiha Fugaku & Uchiha Sasuke
Fandom: Naruto open_in_new

Summary:

On the brink of ruin, Itachi is forced to make a decision that will change the course of the future: He aids his father, and the entire Uchiha clan, in the operation of a coup d'état against the leaders of Konoha. Following its success, he must bear witness to what becomes of his beloved village while recognizing his own responsibility in its creation.

Worse still, his relationship with his younger brother has grown fraught and distant over the years, burdened both by their father's influence and Itachi's own conscience. Bridging the gulf between them seems an impossible task.

Bookmarker's Notes:

“I don’t need it to work, I just need it. As many times as you decide you’ll give it to me.”

Jarring and brilliant and wonderful and terrible. This is what I want from canon divergence; Itachi's disassociation throughout, the bond between these two, and that final scene especially were masterfully done. This fic left me feeling cold dread.

Words: 34,658   Bookmarked Date: 24 Jul 2024

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

In 1988, three witches in Montana are growing a monster in their garden, and Sam is holiday snack. When Dean and John show up to get him, one witch is killed, and Dean gets a love curse that he keeps secret. As teenagers, Sam and Dean are living in a dying industrial town in Pennsylvania, where they come across a crooked old creature that takes an unusual interest in Dean. As adults, Sam and Dean return to Montana for a hunt and run into the two surviving witches who have been unsuccessfully trying to grow their monster. Dean, still carrying the love spell from the dead witch, is looking like perfect plant feed.

Bookmarker's Notes:

This author sold their soul to the devil for pretty prose. I have no explanation for the genuis and artistry present in every turn of phrase. The witches fit so seamlessly into this world, to the point that I was actually more invested in them than I was in Sam and Dean (sorry, boys). So creative and inspired, fitting almost entirely outside of the binary boundaries of trope categories. I feel so lucky to have read this.

Words: 30,348   Bookmarked Date: 12 Jul 2024

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

Everything Dean is, even all these years later, is still for Sam, only ever Sam, it beats through his blood more real to him than his own heartbeat, Sam, Sam, Sam. The common fucking denominator of Dean's entire life.

or

Four years later, Dean has Sam back. Some things have changed. The main thing hasn't.

Bookmarker's Notes:

Sequel to the next fic down. This was an arrow to the heart, so intense and smothering that it made me nauseous at times.

Words: 35,769   Bookmarked Date: 10 Jul 2024

Pairings: Peter Parker/Wade Wilson
Fandom: Spider-Man: Homecoming (2017) open_in_new, Deadpool (2016) open_in_new, Marvel Cinematic Universe open_in_new

Summary:

“What did I fucking say?!” Deadpool yells from across the room. “‘Don’t go into the drug lord’s sex den without me.’ I was very specific!”

Bookmarker's Notes:

This one left me haunted and horny. The oppressive atmosphere tastes like old detective shows. This is exactly how I want them. Pure lyricism in prose form.

Words: 9,394   Bookmarked Date: 30 Jun 2024

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

Sam watched Dean hack up firewood with his hatchet. The magically-induced heat wave had his shirt soaked with sweat.

“Did you ever have a, uh… experimental phase?” Sam smacked his lips, trying to think of a diplomatic way to phrase it. “That kid–by which I mean you–has been staring. At me. Kind of a lot.”

(Sam and Dean get sent back to 1996 and go on a hunt with their teenaged selves. The kids don't know who they are.)

Bookmarker's Notes:

As much as I love the "It's the natural next step" Wincest, there will always be a special fondness in me for disgusting-messy Wincest and the unfiltered horror of familial codependency. This fic is that to a T. They're ugly and horrible and a fucking trainwreck and this fic really, really sells all of that. Something about the brutal inevitability of it all is just staggering – every stray scrap of symbolism contributes to this suffocating, inescapable atmosphere. The fever pitch is in the separation of seasons and thirteen years. The paranoid anxiety of it all is practically psychedelic.

This was such a unique premise and a faithful presentation of these characters in all the ways that are good, bad, and ugly.

Words: 105,324   Bookmarked Date: 28 Jun 2024

Pairings: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural open_in_new

Summary:

"The werewolf." Sam says, quick. Hushed. Scared. "I don't know how. I was…"He was standing above you and then he wasn't. And I think I did that."

Dean keeps whispering stuff to Sam, banal reassurances that Sam soaks up like a sponge, but he feels sick. Sammy did something impossible. Sammy's been doing impossible things.

For years.

Or: Pre-Canon/Teen!chesters AU in which Sam develops powers at age eleven, Dean will do anything to protect him, and they have to live with the consequences

Bookmarker's Notes:

This is one of the most beautiful fics I've ever read. Atmospheric and lovely, aching with possession and codependency, simple and gripping. They're only each other's . . .

Words: 55,501   Bookmarked Date: 18 Jun 2024

Pairings: Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji/Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian
Fandom: Modao Zushi | Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation open_in_new, The Untamed open_in_new

Summary:

Lan Zhan stops in front of one of the bespoke duplicates– a male figure, small, creamy-skinned and lithe. The name on the plinth reads Mo Xuanyu. Lan Zhan tested it on his first pass through the room. The doll was empty. No signals bouncing around its artificial brain, no operating programs queued to autostart. Not even a blinking dormancy light.

"Hey big guy," says Mo Xuanyu, chrome eyes sparkling with fun. "Who do I gotta fuck around here to get unplugged?"

Wei Ying is a rogue AI come to life. Lan Zhan is… handling it.

Bookmarker's Notes:

Head-over-heels in love with this setting and its worldbuilding. Extremely satisfying narrative arc, everything is true to character and canon. I loved this one.

Words: 70,100   Bookmarked Date: 29 May 2024

Pairings: Luo Binghe/Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu
Fandom: The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System open_in_new

Summary:

Ju Ying, a tsundere brothel-worker with a strong but underdeveloped foundation and some sort of mysterious backstory involving a dead teacher, was absolutely not one of Luo Binghe's wives. Ju Ying, with her intense gaze and her kind hands and her beautiful, calculating eyes, never crossed Luo Binghe's path in the novel. Shen Qingqiu would definitely remember. She would have been in his top five. Maybe at the top of his top five; he would have been screaming in the comments for her to get a better arc, for Airplane not to just shove her in the back of the harem to waste away into nothing. Maybe, Shen Qingqiu thought, she would have been his favorite.

Bookmarker's Notes:

Identity fuckery, BingYuan, and misunderstandings. What more could you want?

Words: 32,114   Bookmarked Date: 28 May 2024

Pairings: Luo Binghe/Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu
Fandom: The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System open_in_new

Summary:

They're calling HDF a miracle cure.

Shen Yuan could really use a miracle.

Bookmarker's Notes:

Delightful worldbuilding. I'd take an entire novel's worth of x_los's particular brand of witty smut blended with medfet. This has no right to be this good.

Words: 4,678   Bookmarked Date: 27 May 2024